....this time, i'll love you much better, If ever you're in my arms again, This time i'll hold you forever. This time would never end... - Peabo Bryson -

who ever said breaking up was a happy event? I just didn't know it'd hurt so bad. Maybe this is for the best... I have to keep telling myself that. But to not be able to say it in my face? I need an explanation for that. If not, my heart's not gonna rest at all. I keep wishing this is the last time i'd have to have my heart broken again. I swore to my grave, that i'd never hurt again. Best friend says its not worth it at all if he makes me feel this way. I wish I can listen to her. I tell people I do, cos I don't wanna disappoint her again... I know this can only be a good thing. The time off... But I'm not sure if I can live on.. honestly... Why can't it be so easy? Loving someone? Why do you have to think about it being the right time and place. The right moments... the right person?? And when you did think he was the right one... why did it suddenly have to change? Did it have to be because of someone else? Something else? Or just the lack of understanding and communication? I could say I love you, it hurts me deep in my heart. But you are still somewhere in my heart...I can't be like you, to split and run.

Right now, I don't know if I should pretend to be strong so that you will think I am okay, or to forget the very reason for loving you....both i find i cannot do...